I must learn to love the fool in me -- the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries. It alone protects me against that utterly self-controlled masterful tyrant whom I also harbor and who would rob me of human aliveness, fool.
Theodore I. Rubin, MD
I had a very good weekend in a renewing sort of way.
Thursday (which I'm totally counting in the weekend) was an opportunity to mend a relationship, see a friend do what she loves, and have renewed faith in kind and caring people. (Side note: seeing a musical from the sound booth might be better than seeing it in any other seat. Also, you would be shocked to know that I am able to stay quiet for that long.)
Friday brought needed sleep, a surprise lunch with an old and lovely friend, and an evening at work that reminded me that a change in plans can provide opportunities to see people in a new light and to connect with them on a deeper level.
Saturday included errand running that accidentally gave me some good "singing with John" in the car time, a movie matinee (If you see My Sister's Keeper take a box of tissue. I pretty much cried through the whole thing and then got a headache from crying so much. But it was good and worth it.), a trip to Ikea to help a friend prepare to start a new career, very good chatting time with that same friend that helped me see myself through new eyes, and an evening laughing with many friends playing a silly game. Also a series of phone calls from a very thoughtful mother who found me a new camera at an amazing price. Thank you mom.
Sunday was church which brought a spiritual renewal and an opportunity to help a friend, quality time and good food with friends who will soon be a little further away and a chance to meet new people.
All in all a very good weekend. Reminders that I shouldn't be quite so hard on myself and that I am surrounded by amazing friends.